Hours away from leaving and it just feels wrong.
There is really never a good time to take several days out of your life, is there?
My stepchild needs me (aka The Teenager). They are away at school right now and had a fall a few days ago and hit their head and now have follow-up medical appointments to attend that I should be going to with them.
My husband needs me. He is stressed and not feeling well and while he supports the decision for me to go, he seems very cranky about me leaving.
My dog needs me. He is not doing well at the place he usually stays while we are away – he got into a fight with another dog there and now has to be kept in isolation and the caregivers are stressed and I just got off the phone with them and am sitting here crying because he has to continue to stay there as my husband works such long hours that he cannot care for him when I’m not here. There is nothing I can do but leave him there and trust and hope that all will be okay.
My house needs me. Everything is a mess and while I am trying to do what I can before I leave, I feel like I am leaving things a disaster.
I feel selfish for leaving it all behind and in such a mess. I feel like a failure for not being able to make sure everyone and everything are okay before I go. And for being “broken” and having to go to begin with and put us in more debt to try to fix things.
What is the universe trying to tell me?