Today marks day 3 of 30 on the antibiotics: Rifampin and Azithromycin.
So far they aren’t as bad as I expected. The Rifampin makes me a little woozy the first hour, as I take it on an empty stomach, but then I eat something and take the Azithromycin and I’m generally okay. We’ll see how it goes as time goes on.
I am not taking any probiotics yet. Just fresh cilantro daily to hopefully break down the mercury and any other metals the bacteria might be hiding behind.
I’ve been steering away from dairy as I’m worried it will disagree with me, and I haven’t been drinking at all (the Rifampin says no alcohol, although Dr. WK said one drink a day is fine…).
On the symptom watch, I had some EWCM on Sunday/Monday-ish, which was encouraging. Then I had a little bleeding yesterday, which Dr. WK warned me would happen. It’s just the scab from my D&C falling away. I was so hoping it was my period, but no such luck. And I still have joint pain on and off and those %#&@$# hot flashes are still happening. I loathe them so much. I feel like the wicked witch of the west melting in The Wizard of Oz. They are depressing me to no end. On top of that, I had a falling out with a girlfriend this week, so I have been trying to get past that. Oh, and of course there’s Christmas coming and all…another Christmas with no pregnancy and no baby and a death in the family – ho, ho, ho.
On a positive note, I am continuing to feel better overall – lighter, more energetic feeling. I don’t wake up tired and heavy feeling like I used to.
And more positive stuff: I did find a really reassuring story on the Fertile Heart website (Julia Indichova’s site – she is the author of Inconceivable….she had secondary infertility with an FSH of 42 at age 42). Here is a link to the story about a woman with an FSH of 150 at the age of 34:
I’ve been on this whole natural approach path in the past, but while I could keep up with the diet and supplements for a good 6 months or more, I never really committed to the meditation/spiritual aspect of it. I am going to start easing back into my supplements and slowly start some more mindful eating again – especially foods that will increase my estrogen so I can hopefully keep these hot flashes and pains in my joints under control. And I ordered Julia’s latest book and a set of CDs. Nothing like some online fertility shopping to make you feel like you’re being (re)productive!
I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t feeling quite down. It feels like such a long way to go still to get to the point where we can try to conceive again. And we don’t even know if we’ll get there at all. And this girlfriend I had the falling out with…she hasn’t treated me very well over the past little while, so I should be glad that I expressed my hurt feelings and all that, but it’s still hard to think there’s someone out there who doesn’t like me or want to be my friend. (I know I sound like I am twelve years old, but please be patient with me – I am feeling pretty weak…antibiotics take a lot out of a person!)
One final positive thing: I am starting to hear from some women who are coming across my blog and wanting to know who Dr. WK is….which makes me happy, because that is exactly what I was hoping would happen. How I wish I had known that he was the right doctor for me so much earlier in my infertility journey. I can only imagine what my life would look like now if I had done this sooner.