Thank you for the comments and concern.
Things have been, well…difficult.
The hot flashes continue, and this upsets me greatly. So much so, that I tried to search for other causes (deep down I just do not believe that they are the result of early menopause – that’s just what my gut says). I discovered a lot of talk online about thyroid and synthetic thyroid and hot flashes…so I started to self-diagnose with hyperthyroidism…after all, I’ve been taking synthetic thyroid for hypothyroidism for 10 years now…Dr. WK said my under active thyroid is the result of the infection. Now that the infection is apparently gone, it would make sense that my thyroid might improve functioning, thereby reducing the need for medication. I even e-mailed him to ask him if my thyroid could improve function post-treatment. He said ‘yes’ and told me I should get my levels checked. I felt pretty excited about this. After all, aside from the hot flashes, I have been experiencing a lot of other hyper symptoms: frequent urination, frequent bowel movements, increased thirst, feeling hot, restlessness, sleeplessness, nightmares, even heart palpitations. For those of you who know Chinese medicine, I’ve been feeling like I have too much Yang. Another symptom of hyper, according to the book I have, is scanty periods…if what I had a month ago was a period, it was definitely scanty!
Fortunately, Dr. Cheshire did do a blood test on my TSH and T4 when I went to see her. The nurse called with my results on Friday. I was totally prepared to have my Synthroid dosage reduced. But I got the opposite news – it is to be increased! My TSH is high! 6.02! And my T4 is in what is considered to be the normal range – 13.5. I am to start taking the new dosage and go back in 6-8 weeks for a retest. I am so confused by this, and I am trying to figure out what my next step should be. I’ve been searching online for info, and the only helpful piece of info I learned is that if you are tested early in the morning, your FSH is 26% higher than in the afternoon…I hadn’t had breakfast when my blood was taken and it was late morning because Dr. Cheshire had been running late and I had to wait to get seen in the lab…could that make much difference? Does anyone out there know anything about thyroid? Any suggestions? I’ve e-mailed Dr. WK to see if he has any suggestions for me, but haven’t heard back.
So I am feeling disheartened by this, along with the fact that I haven’t gotten my period (still holding out hope for it, though – feeling crampy and extremely emotional and irritable and it’s a month since I started spotting last month). I’m also getting funny discharge/cervical mucous…it’s yellowish, which makes me wonder if the infection is back.
I don’t know. I have been taking supplements again, including wheat grass again. (I will list what I am taking in another post, in case anyone is interested). I am eating sauerkraut daily for its probiotics. I am reading Julia Indichova’s book, The Fertile Female. I am getting back on track with diet, but still not where I need it to be as far as optimal nutrition and hormone-balancing foods…working on it. I would exercise more than just walking the dog, but my stupid foot is still hurting.
But frankly, I’m just so tired. This thyroid thing is sending me over the edge…I just don’t trust a single blood test, and I’m wary of changing my dosage again (in the past year, I have gone from 0.1 mg to 0.125 to 0.112, and now I’m being bounced back to 0.125. On June 29 my TSH was 0.86…now it’s 6.02….wtf?
I just need something to go right. I *need* to get my period. And to have a low FSH number on CD3. I really need a glimmer of hope.
Amidst all of this mystery about my body and the horrible hot flashes, I am painfully aware that time is marching on…I look longingly at my friends who have 2-3 children now and are leading full-fledged family lifestyles. And when I was in my thirties I thought I could catch up…but now….I just don’t know – a lot would have to happen in the next two years. And then there’s career, too…I haven’t had the career I dreamed for myself, either. Instead of having a great career, and instead of getting pregnant and having a big family, I’ve had kind of half of each….I’ve raised a stepchild half of the time and had half of a career in the arts. Not really successful at either. And now my life is half over, if I’m lucky.
I’m pretty depressed…maybe I do have an under active thyroid. Or I’m just a long-time sufferer of infertility.
I’ll leave you with one piece of good news: we have booked Mr. H’s treatment for February. Another hurdle to jump, but all going well he should be finishing up his 30-day stint of oral antibiotics by the end of March. Maybe we’ll actually get to start trying to have a baby in April….if all the ducks finally get in their damn places in a row.